does anyone ever feel like work is making your child feel neglected?

So lately I have been so busy editing photos and selling Jamberry that I feel like my little man isnt getting enough attention. I feel so terrible! He's definitely been acting out an I can see it. So today I am taking the day off from all work to be with him. We're going to disney and we are getting out of the house. I feel so bad because I know he wants to play and I'm so busy that sometimes I dont even notice. I know he has a great life but I know he  needs more mommy time. I have to give him more mommy time! I feel terrible! does anyone else ever feel like this? Am I the only one? Sometimes I regret working 3 jobs because it takes away my time from him and he is only going to be 2 once! So we are off to the happiest place on earth.....right... lol

I'm such a slacker!

I know, I know, I've been slacking a little bit on my blogging, but I am back in action! Wanna hear whats new? Well, hubby and I are trying for baby #2, those of you that know me personally know that this isn't easy for us. I have unfortunately suffered multiple miscarriages so my doctor is putting me on a series of medications that will hopefully help the process. We have our fingers crossed that it'll work the first time. Second, I have also started selling Jamberry, which is so AWESOME!! I LOVE THEM!! I used to never do my nails because I've always been too lazy to redo them, and take the polish off. But this is so much easier especially with how busy I am. And I've actually been able to do pretty well in my first month! Photography has been great as always as well. I have another beach mini coming up in two weeks that I'm happy for because I'm doing sunset this time. Sunrise was way too hot and too many people. Plus the lighting is so much nicer at sunset. Third, I'm dealing with the terrible twos of my little man. The tantrums are starting! HELP ME! lol he is seriously all over the place. I took him to Disney and he met Rapunzel and she loved him, she was so happy to be around him it was hilarious. I am definitely blessed with such a great little boy. I love that monster so much. I am starting blog reviews as well. I have a few companies that are sending me some items and I cant wait to get them! you are all going to love them! I'm definitely excited foo the specially made moccasins we are getting. You will all see them soon. Last weekend I did a normalize breastfeeding session (unfortunately we had a lot of cancellations at the last minute) and the photos are absolutely beautiful! the babies that came were absolutely adorable as well! I want to thank the mamas that did come out and help me show the world how important breastfeeding means to me. One of the moms had difficulties just like I did but I am so glad that she is continuing like I did. It isn't always an easy road. So since that was my favorite part of the week I will post that photo as I always post a photo at the end. I hope we get some more followers soon. Follow me on twitter @mypiecesoflove thank you all!-Kayla

Starting to become a review blogger

Along with being a photographer and stay at home mama, wife, and blogger, I want to start being a review blogger. I have reached out to some shops and got good responses then, also got ignored. Which im sure is part of the process. Everyone has to start somewhere and I'm hoping that everything works out. I think it would be so fun to try new things for my son or myself but mostly my son. I know I have a lot on my plate already but after seeing some friends do it I know i can too. What do you guys think? Should I venture that way? I'm loving reaching out to different companies to see how it all works out. I'm hoping that the ones who have committed keep their word. Now yesterday, I had my first wedding session. I LOVED it, I had so much fun and  I can't wait to start editing it. It is one of my favorite things to photograph along with births. I love that they choose me to be a part of their most important days. And!! A family from Canada is coming to Florida and having me take their photos! Im so flattered and excited that they want me to do them. I feel so great doing all of this stuff especially with everything I had been going through. I'm keeping busy and staying happy. My little boy is amazing, my hubby is the best hubby anyone could ask for, I'm just so blessed. This week I want everyone to take a step back and see how much your family means to you and how important they are. These weekend I'm taking another step toward normalizing breastfeeding and doing a group photo of about ten women with their babies or all ages nursing them in public at a park. I'm super excited about this session as well. So to end the night I'll show you two little sneak peeks of the wedding. And wish me luck with all of the shops I am trying to work with! Good night 

-Kayla 

be positive

Do you ever feel like maybe you weren't meant to be a wife or a mom? We all have those days right? Or is it just me? I know I've definitely fallen behind in my blogging, for those of you who even read it, if there are any lol. Some days are just really hard. I didnt think that becoming a photographer would change my life this much. Now I'm always so busy catching up on editing that I have to catch myself sometimes and say STOP you need to play and spend time with your son. I know that I really need to cherish the time I have with him. It feels like he was just born yesterday and now he is 2 and trying to speak in sentences, and in spanish! Its so crazy and overwhelming in a good way. I really just wish he had some kids his age to play with. He had cousins  but unfortunately their parents chose to go a different route. And I;m totally freaked out by daycares after seeing all the posts on facebook about child abuse and stuff like that. I seriously need to find someone to have mommy and baby dates with. My husband works all day everyday it feels like, and when hes off it seems like we dont even acknowledge one another at times. Marriage isn't easy either. I think its even harder than parenting. But I do feel like I need to start looking at things in a more positive way. I did a lot of thinking last night (i started this blog before bed) and I realized that if I keep thinking negatively then my life is  going to be a negative life. So from here on out I'm going to be more positive. So Everyone else who is always in a negative mood, change with me! become more of a positive person, for your family, friends and yourself. I promise it will make a difference.its hard juggling wife, mom, and photographer but its worth doing everything i love. REMEMBER to start following me on twitter as well: mypiecesoflove. and my facebook: www.facebook.com/mylittlepiecesoflove
-Kayla
here is my photo of the week and one of my favorites, actually ill post two. one of my little man too.

bullying and breastfeeding

First, I want to start and tell you all a little journey about my photography career. Ive always had an interest in photography but my husband and I could never afford to spend $700 on my camera, let alone the rest of the equipment to go with it so i never really decided to act on it until this year. but I want you all to know that I was threatened to be sued by who I thought was family. People that I took in when they were literally homeless because thats the people my husband and I want to be. caring, loving individuals especially to our family. I was being cyber bullied, though comments werent directly made to me they were about me being a photocopy etc. But now as I look back I am the original copy. I have never once been fake about who I am. I didnt pretend to be anyone im not. Im not stealing others ideas. I started taking photos behind the scenes as something I wanted to be my original thing, I wanted to blog for my original thing, and all this does is help me strive to be even better. Because I know that deep down I am my own original copy, and I dont need anyone to reassure me of that. I dont need to cyber bully people for wanting to follow their dreams. I will work with them and help them. If they have a question ill answer it, if they need advice ill give it because that is who i was taught to be. But i want everyone to always remember, that there are some pretty crappy people who will do anything to bring you down. DON'T LET THEM. Thats what they want, the want to see you fail. It'll make things so much better for you to succeed without anyones approval but your own. I know that I am doing a damn good job, as a wife, as a mother, and a photographer. I am following my dreams thanks to all of you who help make it happen. Now theres one, well two things I also want to get off my chest. Breastfeeding and the cry it out method.
Now I am in no way shape or form judging any formula feeding mother, i was formula fed and i came out perfectly fine, I know its not for everyone, but we need to start normalizing breastfeeding. What did mothers do before formula was invented? They had wet nurses who would breastfeed other babies. When did it become such a shame for a woman to breastfeed her sweet child in public? Its okay for strippers and women with big boobs to be all over tv and walking around with them hanging out but feeding your child is a sexual act? how does that even make sense? Women were born with breasts to nourish their children, not for anything sexual. They dont cover up in any other country so why should we here? why should we  especially in florida force our babies to have these hot blankets over them because someone is disgusted by breastfeeding? its amazing to me. so I want all breastfeeding moms to join with me and normalize breastfeeding! I know some women are shy and dont want to be uncovered in public, my husband wanted me to cover up and i understand why. but now everytime i see a mother nursing in public i walk up to her and say youre doing a great job, because thats what they need to hear. it makes me cringe when someone wont even try to breastfeed when they say thats gross im not doing that. why not? why dont you want to at least try to give your child the best? i tried formula for my son and it didnt work  out, it made him literally sick. and last but not least, this cry it out method. PLEASE STOP! stop letting your babies cry to the point of exhaustion. please cuddle and comfort them, they are babies! I hate these articles talking about letting them CIO! they are crying for a reason! okay sorry for the rant lol i hope that breastfeeding is normalized soon, the bullying stops, and babies are comforted the way they should be. heres my photo of the week
-Kayla

This is definitely a rant blog

Is parenthood and life supposed to be this hard? Today was just one of those days where you want to be alone and binge watch netflix in the dark with a warm blanket. It started out great, I got to do a beautiful baby girls newborn session, then it went downhill from there. My son ran into the street, my husband and I havent talked in hours, my mother and I got into an argument, my eyes are burning from the crying and frustration. I love my little man and all I want to do is cuddle him but my mom is coming to visit Tuesday and I need to edit as much as possible before she gets here, tonight and tomorrow are going to be long. I dont really even know if anyone reads my blogs, I havent gotten any comments, do any of you understand how I feel? I wish it would get easier but it doesn't. I love photography but I feel my son slipping away since I dont get to see him that much. It breaks my heart to hear him cry when I leave. It really does. It makes me want to say screw it and just stay home with him. But we have bills of course. Is being a mother and wife supposed to be this hard? Or am I just being a baby about it? Another topic I wanted to bring up is carseat safety. Ive been seeing a LOT of articles lately about carseat safety. PLEASE make sure that the buckle is even with your childs armpits, rear face until at least 2 years old or as close to 2 as you can, and make sure it is installed properly. I just read about an Alaska Airlines incident and I will never fly on that airline again. Them choosing comfort over an infants safety is unbelievable. Also, I will never fly United again either because of the animal abuse, if you havent heard it yet google it. Its ridiculous and sad. I cant even believe they are still in business. Okay heres my last rant, so yesterday I went to walmart with my son to get some supplies I needed for some upcoming sessions and Im waiting for a parking space and this man (mid 40s-50s) walks by and makes a hand gesture at my car while giving me a dirty look. Now i had been waiting for the space for probably 3 minutes, meanwhile he wasnt even in his car yet. I was FURIOUS! How can he be mad at me when he isnt even in his car?! So of course my protective mommyness came out and I said some things I wont write in here because they are inappropriate and he drove off all mad. Im sorry id like a close spot since I have a two year old that I have to carry who weighs 26 lbs and is heavy as heck! Like who does this guy think he is. Anyways sorry for the rant post but I had to get it out. Here is my favorite photo from this week.
-Kayla

ahh the life of being a mom

Long day, can you tell by the title??
I'm super behind on editing and of course those are the days when your kids seem to be the most needy. I probably should be editing now but thought I'd take a break. I have one last album and I'm at least caught up. Although I love how my little man wants my attention and wants to be with my but sometimes its just so hard. I know those of you with 2 year olds understand, and if you have babies under 2 you will understand soon. It's the "I want to do everything on my own, but you need to do it for me as well" stage. They want to be independent but cant completely be. Finally I had to break down and take an hour nap because it was too overwhelming, but i got woken up to banging on my door from my little man yelling MAMA, MAMA!! (don't worry he wasn't unsupervised) The dogs were watching him lol totally joking. And to think we want another?! I must be crazy right?! but with all these babies being born, and all these births I'm photographing it is honestly giving me the worst baby fever. But i also feel like how could I ever love another baby as much as my first. Then I feel terrible for even thinking that. That's a normal thought right? Anyways, I'm loving all of the work I've been getting. I'm still deciding what my favorite kind of photography is. I think it might be newborns, but tomorrow is my first boudoir session and I think im going to really love that. I love all sessions but I want to find my absolute favorite and specialize in that. Who knows maybe I'll just love it all and continue it all. So everyone, for the month of June I am offering $60 maternity sessions and $40 infant sessions (under the age of one) for a little more practice. So here is my favorite photo from this month so far,
-Kayla